[	mood	|	nostalgic	]
[	music	|	ely guerra	]

i miss last year and old freinds :( everyone's graduating and i'm never gonna see them again i feel like an idiot for not taking advantage of the time that i had with the unique people i met that loved me and cared for me i'm so stupid i'm trying to better myself i'm trying not to say anything bad about anyone and i quit drinking and smoking but idk todays adoration i hope it lifts me up.i got checked out of school today by my mamushka i luv her she knew i felt sick and that i had to do that big ass reasearch paper and she let me come home. even though he says that its not true i honestly think i'm never gonna see julian after he graduates i dont talk to the same people and i go to church alot now idk i HATE this year i wish school was over :(

 saw audry this weekend it was purdy cool she's back with gabe it disapointed me because even though he's cool she's way to pretty for him  i have some good fucking pics from like so much shit that i did this month even though no one prob cares i realy want to post it i hung out with chris this friday and jimmy (girl jimmy) she's pretty cool idk i dont hate kerry anymore she hates allison i like allison she's the coolest drunk chick she made me laugh realy hard that day at my house i CANT FUCKING WAIT UNTIL I GET INTERNET my stupid ass my space wont let me read my old messages even though theyre fucking unread i need to go to someone's house and use theyre computer AAAAAAAH'S  poor desi i just heard that she's in iss for to many tardy's

cadi hubbard.........i dont know cadi's last name but she has hair down to her buttttttt and she wears just skirts because she's pentacostal is the coooooooooolest fucking chick she's halarious and she bought me subway i like my gay church now its preeeeeeeety cool i think this entry sounds realy gay and hippiish because it doesent say anything but stuff that i like eeeeeeehhhh i'm going to confirm on sunday today ive been walking around in a wranglers shirt i'm problably just about the coolest most fashionable person in school

wink wink

laters

i realy realy dislike keri she gets in to peoples shit and she decided to tell brittney that i was talking shit whitch i fucking wasent so i fucking ask her did you tell brittney that i called her a bitch or is brittney lying, and she has no response it seem's that whenever she gets caught in a lie its no big deal but when theres a bad rumer going around that isnt even fucking true about me she can zoom in to everyone's business and make false claims. she didnt listen to me until i had a party, and she wrote me that stupid ass comment on my profile i'm not a realy nice person and i feel stupid that i didnt kick her out. i'm fucking upset now she's trying to be freindly again i dont give a shit about her i dont hate her or like her i only miss one person and this big fucking lie cost us our fucking freindship i'm realy upset i want to have i ciggaret party for confirmation tell me what u think i'm gonna get my mom to buy some cartons of cig's and dumb them out in to a bowl like chips

saund cul?

i need to figure out how to do that lj cut shit but this is my sister i did this shit long ago i still think its cool though i fucked up on m little pic for the lj thing it seems that all these new ppl are getting lj's and my space's its weird i bearly got one last summer but i still feel realy possesive and realy mean like i just want to try and somehow cancel theyre pages and make it so that they can never get on theres alot of drama with almost every girl i hang out with its weird last year there wasnt any of this shit going on i dont have almost any music on my computer just alot of blonde redhead and cursive and oxymoron its lame i realy wish i had internet again oh well sunday's ma b day and i'm getting presents

[	mood	|	confused	]
[	music	|	in my head g's in a coma	]

i'm here in french with desssssssssssssi i hate mrs. kendal i saw keri's comment yesterday i got fuckin pissed it doesent matter though she's moving idk weather to be glad that i didnt see it erlier or weather to be pissed that i let her in my fucking house because if i would of seen that i problably would of done something drastic and stupid ehhh fuck it, i gues it was kind of better that i did she told me she was gonna talk to brittney and she listened to me and now she knows and believes that i wasent talking shit about brittney  either way shit is always gonna be akward between them i dont want to care and i almost dont but i still kind of do care and it sux idk

yesterday i went to wash kelly's car with liz it was pretty fucking fun i blessed kellys car with a sqeegy and for those of you who dont know she's not a fucking newmetal kid she's realy cool to hang out with nobody reads this lj though not unless it has a party or a picture listed my party date is actualy april 23 because thats a saterday some chick on the drill team has the same bday that i do on april 24 thats fucking awsome i always look for ppl who have the same bday as me and i could never find any and now i did and i dont even know her name ehh